Are You Metally Ill, Psychic, or Both?

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I was once told by a terrible psychic, who was also diagnosed with bi-polar disorder, that she tapered off of her medication under a doctor’s supervision. She also told me that I would, “know when I did what she did”. Whether she was talking about not taking medication or that being psychic held some mysterious knowing, I have no idea. She was very vague and acted like she knew everything. It was all a very convincing act to me because I was vulnerable and seeking answers. I never questioned my medication before. So, inspired by this woman’s story, I naively decided to stop taking my psych meds (DO NOT DO THIS). Doing so landed my butt in the psychiatric hospital for several weeks afterward. A few days after my release from the hospital, that same psychic was waiting with liability paperwork for me to sign. Plus, she charged me for the meeting.  What a rip off.

Anyway, I learned something really cool after that whole ordeal. When I did my own research for FREE, I found out that everyone is psychic to some degree and I found the very fitting term: empath. However, I was still hospitalized four more times over the course of three years. So how did I end up hospitalized so many times? I resisted taking a therapeutic dose of my medication. I wanted to taper off my medicine completely, thinking it dulled my intuitive gifts and that I was an just an empath and not mentally ill too. It was all my ego. I didn’t realize I was dealing with both. Therefore, I wasn’t telling my doctor about my symptoms so he could properly treat me.

After all those hospitalizations, I knew something had to change. I realized two things: First, is an Albert Einstein quote, “You can’t keep doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results.” I stopped being such a control freak about my treatment. I told myself that I was going to do whatever my doctor told me without a fight and let the universe take it from there. And guess what? It worked. He didn’t over-medicate me. He listened to me and suggested we try a new medication (Lamictal) and it lifted my depression. The second thing I told myself was this: “The universe is stronger than any medication. You will still get signs and you will still feel and be connected. It may be harder, but you are never disconnected from the unconditional love connecting everything. Ever.” Guess what? I still feel Spirit. I still get intuitive hits. I am still getting signs, only now I want to get out of bed in the morning too.

Speaking of being numb or uncomfortable. Side-effects are not fun. They do go away and sometimes you just have to ride out the symptoms. Keep in mind that herbal remedies have side effects too. For example, St. Johns wort can cause trouble sleeping, restlessness, irritability, fatigue, dry mouth, headache, skin rash, diarrhea, and tingling (source). These side effects sound similar to Lithium Carbonate–which is a simple alkali metal, the salt of which acts as a mood stabilizing agent (source). Metaphysically, salt protects and takes away negativity. Lithium was used in 7UP from 1929-1948 and people have been bathing in natural Lithium springs for centuries. The springs were said to induce calm and relaxation. Science hasn’t quite figured out how it works on bipolar disorder yet, which is actually kinda cool. In large doses Lithium can be toxic, which is why blood tests to check kidney function are important. The kidneys are the only organs that process lithium in the body, thus the testing. Be proactive with blood tests and request them often. The therapeutic range for lithium is 0.06-1.2mmol/L. It’s your body. Know what’s going in it. It’s also a good idea to ask your doctor about including a thyroid test too.

Medicine does not change your personality, trust me. When you have a headache and you take an aspirin, does that change your outlook on life? Does it numb your symptoms instead of healing them? No. You are in control, not your doctor, your medicine, your spouse or your illness. Write down any questions you have before you visit the doctor. I had symptoms of depression for over two weeks one time. It was only on the second weekend of feeling low, low energy that it dawned on me what was going on. I saged myself and my entire house. I burned Palo Santo. I meditated. I took an hour long Epsom salt and crystal bath. I called my best friend. These things helped alleviate the symptoms a little bit and I am thankful I have them in my self-care tool box. However, let me tell you what: I don’t care if it’s Mercury Retrograde, solar flares, a mental illness, being an empath, the change in the seasons, or what phase the moon is in that’s causing my symptoms. I want them managed, and if a little pill helps, in conjunction with holistic tools–So. Be. It. Also, no anti-psychotic, anti-depressant or mood stabilizer is stronger than unconditional love and that’s what the universe runs on, baby.

It’s all about balance for me. I honestly don’t think either holistic or Western medicine alone would completely heal me mind, body, and soul. I’ve just read enough garbage online where each one bashes the other and I’m sick of it. All I can say is what works for me. I am not any less intuitive because of it. In fact, through this journey I think I’ve become better at listening to my intuition. My discernment between what’s a symptom of illness and what are actual psychic hits has improved. For example, intuitive information is subtle, calm and validated later in every day life. Psychosis is loud, freaking scary and it NEVER pans out in the “real world”. It’s true when they say that the “mystic swims in the water the psychotic drowns in”. I know. I’ve experienced both.

Some people do have milder forms of mental illness and can use only holistic methods such as tapping, Reiki, acupuncture, body work, meditation, or yoga. Some people can go off their meds cold turkey or taper off and be fine (AGAIN, DON’T DO THIS). Still some people trust only Western medicine. Everyone is different. However, for those of you who are afraid that your personality will change or your intuitive abilities will numb if you have to take medication, never forget that the magic is within you and nothing, no pharmaceuticals, doctor or shitty psychic, can change that. Also, just as Gabby Bernstein says, “The universe has your back” no matter what. Keep looking for signs. Keep your vibration high and your heart open. Love is stronger than any medicine and that’s really where all the magic lives.

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{I also have to stress that every person, every illness, every intuitive ability is different because we are all so unique. This is what works for me. I am not a doctor and can’t give medical advice.}

Important Disclaimer: By writing content on this website, my intent is NOT to replace any relationship that exists, or should exist, between you and a medical doctor or other healthcare professional. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified healthcare professional regarding any questions or concerns you have about your specific health situation or any medications you are currently taking. Do not disregard professional medical advice or delay seeking professional advice because of information you have read on this website. Do not stop taking any medications without speaking to your physician or healthcare professional. If you have or suspect that you have a medical problem, contact your healthcare provider promptly.

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