Are You Metally Ill, Psychic, or Both?

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I was once told by a terrible psychic, who was also told she had bi-polar disorder, that she tapered off of her medication under a doctor’s supervision. She also told me, very cryptically, that I would, “Know when I did what she did”. Whether she was talking about not taking medication or being psychic, I still have no idea. She was very vague, told me nothing “psychic” about my life, and acted like she knew everything. It was all a very convincing act to me because I was vulnerable and seeking answers. I’d never questioned my medication before then. So, inspired by this woman’s story, I naively decided to stop taking my psych meds (DO NOT DO THIS). Doing so landed me in the psychiatric hospital for several weeks afterward. (A few days after my release from the hospital, that same psychic was waiting with liability paperwork for me to sign. Plus, she charged me for that meeting.  What a rip off.)

Anyway, I learned something really cool after that whole ordeal. When I did my own research for FREE, I found out that everyone is psychic to some degree and I found the very fitting term: empath.

After that, I knew something had to change. I realized two things: First, is an Albert Einstein quote, “You can’t keep doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results.” I stopped being such a control freak about my treatment. I told myself that I was going to do whatever my doctor told me without a fight and let the universe take it from there. And guess what? It worked. He didn’t over-medicate me. He listened to me and suggested we try a new medication and it lifted my depression. The second thing I told myself was this: “The universe is stronger than any medication. You will still get signs and you will still feel and be connected. It may be harder, but you are never disconnected from the unconditional love connecting everything. Ever.” Guess what? I still feel Spirit. I still get intuitive hits. I am still getting signs, only now I want to get out of bed in the morning too.

Speaking of being numb or uncomfortable. Side-effects are not fun. They do go away and sometimes you just have to ride them out and it sucks. Here are some of the side effects I’ve experienced in my 19 years dealing with several different medications: constipation, fatigue, blurred vision, hair loss, weight gain, stutter, brain fog, tremor, and more. But guess what? Once you take them for a couple of months, the side effects go away.

Keep in mind that herbal remedies have side effects too. For example, St. Johns wort can cause trouble sleeping, restlessness, irritability, fatigue, dry mouth, headache, skin rash, diarrhea, and tingling (source). These side effects sound similar to the pharmaceutical Lithium Carbonate–which is a simple alkali metal, the salt of which acts as a mood stabilizing agent (source). Metaphysically, salt protects and takes away negativity. Lithium was used in 7UP from 1929-1948 and people have been bathing in natural Lithium springs for centuries. The springs were said to induce calm and relaxation. Science hasn’t quite figured out how it works yet, which is actually kinda cool. (In large doses Lithium can be toxic, which is why blood tests to check kidney function are important. The kidneys are the only organs that process lithium in the body, thus the testing. Be proactive with blood tests and request them often. The therapeutic range for lithium is 0.06-1.2mmol/L. It’s your body. Know what’s going in it. It’s also a good idea to ask your doctor about including a thyroid test too.)

Write down any questions you have before you visit the doctor. One time, I had symptoms of depression for over two weeks. It was only on the second weekend of feeling low energy that it dawned on me what was going on. I saged myself and my entire house. I burned Palo Santo. I meditated. I took an hour long Epsom salt and crystal bath. I called my best friend. These things helped alleviate the symptoms a little bit and I am thankful I have them in my self-care tool box. However, let me tell you what: I don’t care if it’s Mercury Retrograde, solar flares, a mental illness, being an empath, the change in the seasons, or what phase the moon is in that’s causing my symptoms. I want them managed, and if a little pill from the pharmacy helps, as well as some holistic tools–So. Be. It.

That being said, it’s all about balance for me. I honestly don’t think either holistic or Western medicine alone would completely heal me mind, body, and soul. I’ve just read enough garbage online where each one bashes the other and I’m tired of it. You really have to make up your own mind about this debate. Hopefully, writing my experience just helps you see one way, one person, is dealing with their mental illness and intuitive gifts. I’m not trying to “sell” you anything. There is no magic “works for everyone” pill/method and be very wary of those who try to tell you there is. Think for yourself and you’ll be just fine.

Anyway, through this journey I think I’ve become better at listening to my intuition. Mental illness and psychic/intuitive gifts are NOT the same thing. And just because you have a mental illness and have to take medicine does not make you any less psychic/intuitive (this really bothers me). You may be more sensitive and that’s okay. Intuitive gifts are inherent to our souls–every single person has them and has yet to/or has unlocked them. Go slow. Let go of control and enjoy the spiritual path. We are all on our own unique journeys. (I’m not saying everyone should go out and be a medium. And I certainly think, if you are really struggling with delusions, give yourself a break with the psychic shit. And if you don’ t believe in the psychic stuff, maybe stick around for the mental illness stuff, kay?) Lately, my discernment between what’s a symptom of illness and what are actual psychic hits has improved because my mental health has improved. For example, intuitive information is subtle, calm and validated later in every day life. Psychosis is loud, freaking scary and it NEVER pans out in the “real world”. It’s true when they say that the “mystic swims in the water the psychotic drowns in”. I know. I’ve experienced both.

Some people do have milder forms of mental illness and can use only holistic methods such as tapping, Reiki, acupuncture, body work, meditation, or yoga. Some people can go off their meds cold turkey or taper off and be fine (AGAIN, DON’T DO THIS). Still, some people trust only Western medicine or only holistic practices. Everyone is different. However, for those of you who are afraid that your intuitive abilities will numb if you have to take pharmaceutical medication, never forget that the magic is within you and nothing, no pharmaceuticals, doctor or shitty psychic, can change that. Also, just as Gabby Bernstein says, “The universe has your back” no matter what. Let go. Keep looking for signs. Keep your vibration high and your heart open. Love is stronger than any medicine and that’s really where all the magic lives.

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{I also have to stress that every person, every illness, every intuitive ability is different because we are all so unique. This is what works for me. I am not a doctor and can’t give medical advice.}

Important Disclaimer: By writing content on this website, my intent is NOT to replace any relationship that exists, or should exist, between you and a medical doctor or other healthcare professional. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified healthcare professional regarding any questions or concerns you have about your specific health situation or any medications you are currently taking. Do not disregard professional medical advice or delay seeking professional advice because of information you have read on this website. Do not stop taking any medications without speaking to your physician or healthcare professional. If you have or suspect that you have a medical problem, contact your healthcare provider promptly.

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